The Words You Spoke

Friday, August 29, 2008

I love this woman. Why I love her so damn much??

-She's entertaining

-Adorable

-As crazy as me

-Sweet/ Caring/ Thoughtful

-A good photographer (Cos she made me look good in photos... Hee...)

-Accepts me for who I am

-Kisses me my chin even though it can be 'pokey' at times

-Smells my arm pits even though they may smell like Chinese medicine at times

-She's super humorous

-She still loves me no matter how hard I'll squeeze her face while kissing her cheeks

-She'll still hold my hand knowing very well that she's gonna be tickled anytime anywhere


AND........





SHE HAS BRAIDS NOW!!!


WOOHOOO!!!!

And there are a lot more things she does I just can't describe but to just feel how much I really, truly, love her...

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Yes people... I am back...

The reason why??

Well, there are just so many things happening in my life that I've held in me for so long, I need to release it all out, AGAIN.

And there's no better way than blogging...


As some of you might know, I'm attached, again... (Like what's new??) Normal stuffs a couple would go through; ups and downs, mild conflicts, small misunderstanding, little disagreements... blah blah blah...

Right. I guess by reading that paragraph you know what's my issue... But this is something more... Of course there are sensitive stuff which I won't type it down due to, say, relationship sake...

Let me start by telling about myself...

I am an outgoing person. Friendly too. I like to talk crap whenever I'm chilling or whenever I feel like it. Joking or fooling around is like a daily habit to me. I am loud at times and yes, I do misbehave in public, all in the name of fun. I love my job and I love climbing rocks.

I can savely say that most of my friends share maybe 1 or 2 common things with me. My job requires me to be enthusiastic, zestful, slightly childish, spontaneous... etc... After all , I am an outdoor educator....

Only when I'm down and low will you see that all that I've stated above, it'll go away...

Here's one reason why... I WANT A CHANGE. I HAVE TO CHANGE. For relationship sake...

Why??

So people around me like my loved ones wouldn't be embarassed in public whenever they're out with me...

So my loved ones wouldn't think I won't mean what I say because they think that I'm a happy-go-lucky kinda guy who always messes around with his promises and words and not act on them as promised and such...

So my loved ones wouldn't doubt me for lying about big issues just because I lied about a small, tiny issue...

So I would somehow 'match' to some individuals that people compared me to...

So I would just shut up when I'm hurt because of the things people say to me because I just don't matter to anyone...


Since that 'fateful' night (Only I will remember...) ... I just simply broke down... I felt like I was stabbed 300 times in my chest after reading what someone told me online...

I was so lost for words I just couldn't stop myself from feeling so bloody miserable...

I was so deeply wounded that I know this scar will remain forever...


But it ain't that bad... I took it as a new learning point...

I learned that it'll only take 1, just 1 mistake and people will mark me down with past history I had and that's when they know I'm defenseless because I let my guard down...

And now my inner walls are torn down...

So...

Very...

Torn...

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Thank God I took all my courses earlier and not having to wait for people to take it with me.

Here are the reasons:-

- I'm way more employable in the industry I'm currently in and hell I'm gonna be paid much better. Back then, not many people understood my motives.

- All these certificates that I've earned can get me a place in the outdoor industry as far as Aussie and some other parts of the world!

That's just 2 major things I'll mention. And hell I can't wait for my Sport-climbing Instructor course comin' up soon!!

Double the time, double the pay bitches!

And fuck you Naqib. For owing me 500 bucks, the people who worked for you are comin to get you in 2 days time... Its time for us to retaliate, so brace yourself BITCH...



And yes, some pictures of my climbing day with Sofi, Aziz and Wani which was like 2 weeks ago. Got all of the pictures just recently so yup...

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I may be complicated. People may not understand me. I may have gone through dates which have failed over and over again.

But I stand by what I posted on 27 March 2007.

My heart still skipped beats at the sight of her. I am still afraid of even smiling when I saw her.

I kept looking down whenever I see her though deep inside me I would love to look at her over and over again because so far she has not yet failed to make my day...

Her name is still ever so beautiful...

The only courageous thing I'll ever do is just to watch her go; just watch her pass me by...

Monday, January 28, 2008

Bye bye.

Adios!

Monday, December 03, 2007

Hmmmm... Almost a month since my last update... Been down with lung infection and so, I've been lying on bed for 8 good days and with such condition I can't really sit up and update.

Pretty nice out-of-bed look though. And if anyone knows who this is, do tell me. I just felt weird having a picture of someone whom I don't recognise (or maybe I do?) in my photo album for so long so I just wanna clarify things.

Aight. That's it yaw'll...

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Ok... No school today since my Art History lecturer told our class that she'll be away for some course. Was pretty bored at the beginning of the day and so, the only thing that came to my mind was rock-climbing!

Climbed the whole day with Little Miss Sunshine and hell, we didn't expect ourselves to be able to conquer the entire climbing walls the place has to offer. An achievement after regular sessions.

Finally I have the spirit to upload some pictures so here they are...

Little Miss Sunshine showing her white teeth...

Smiling while on the wall and falling hard is the aftermath.

Ok. Whole body's aching pretty much now after climbing so much.

Right. I guess it's now back to work time. Got lots to cover for my assessment so that's it yaw'll! Mr B will be back pretty often now and this blog will no longer be stale.

Ciao!

My Destiny

Ayub
NAFA
superdarkie_milo@hotmail.com